Deny Yourself

Deny your nature, and you deny yourself. If you deny yourself, you will crumble to ash. Its a simple philosophy, and one I believe is true. If one denies their nature, they cannot survive. If a wolf denies its nature to hunt and kill, it will die. If a gazelle denies its nature to flee at danger, it will die. Breathing is in us, unconcious and part of our nature. It is what it is and what we accept and will always follow; and why shouldn't we?

I have never denied my nature, however I have explored different parts of it, and I have definitely delved into parts of my mind, self, and nature that I have not necessarily ventured into before; and why shouldn't I?

After so many years of many facets of myself, masks and traces of other selves. Of all these personas, there have been some I liked, and some I disliked, and some even that have left a bad taste in my mouth. I look back on all of them, and I evolved. From a child to a Man, with a schitzophrenic methodology, a timid child, to valiant defender, to quiet accepter, to strong promoter, to follower, leader, teacher, and more. I turned to another path, a point of my life that I still believe was a good choice, a strong choice, and one which I am stronger for making.

What is wrong with changing one's self to better one's self? I did it, and have been bettered for it. However, I believe I can better myself even more. With the experience I have gleaned in my past, with the strength of character I have built with the past half decade. I think I can combine the two, make something stronger, someone more tuned, knowing, knowledgeable. In the same breath, one whom can truly be what I truly deserve to be.

I started this today, this new me, this new point of view. Some people seemed impressed, noticing the difference immediately, others seemed ignorant of my changes. Others still questioned the wisdom of my new self.

Though in questioning the wisdom, they received answers, and in those answers, have accepted my newfound change.

It seems to be for the better, extroverted, confident, collected, slightly high Mach (ok, majorly high mach, but I always have been), and someone who I think might actually be liked.

Some say these changes cannot, and do not, spawn over night, and I agree. This was hardly something spawned and grown over night. This change has been in the making, under development, for more then a decade.

So let it see the light....Dovenya Sa Tovya Sagain....And the wheel weaves as the wheel wills.

Peace,

Zodiak Out.

Life is a Journey of Steps and Sunsets

Just like love is a slow way of dying

All you knew in life you can carry to death

Just like smiling is a slow way of crying.