Sleep Deprivation

So I have learned through trial and error - mostly error - that no matter how much caffeine you drive into your system (even to the point of eye twitches and blood shot eyes), no sleep for 24 + hours due to gaming, and then going into work for extra hours, is a bad idea.

On a brighter note, due to such a schedule, I'm level 21 on a brand new toon that was just started yesterday. Never played a hunter before, and I must say, they are grossly over-powered in their design for solo'ing. Can only imagine what is going to happen when I hit 70 and abuse the toon for farming...

My goal is to hit 70 before the expansion on the 13th of november. Which of course will involve an indepth withdrawal from reality to get the job done. Wouldn't be the first time I've done such a thing, after all, I did similar for my birthday vacation at the start of the year with my mage. Though it wasn't quite as... -addictive- ... as this particular play time has been.

By rights, I'll be 30-35 by the end of the weekend, if my play winds up near as successful as it has to par, which I see no reason why it shouldn't (despite playing a faction I haven't played since the game was released)....

In other news... Well, nothing really. I've not had anything of significance going on, nothing major to report, Jocelyn hasn't spoken to me since I told her I had no sympathy for her friends demise (not that I particularly have an issue with that... Seems I am very detached to life as of late). No real love interests, and the more I consider those whom -may- be such, the more I consider that I don't know what I want right now, and that I don't think I particularly want anything.

I actually prefer to be single right now.... And it has nothing to do with my over-gaming. I mean hell, I quit WoW back in august, and just got back into it yesterday. That's more then two months without A WoW "fix".... which I think proves beyond a reasonable doubt that I'm not addicted to it, its just a hobby.

I just don't really want anything right now... Everytime I think about it, I think of the commitment, which I don't mind, the prospect of settling down, which I don't mind, and then I consider if I want it right now. The truth is, I don't. Even as much as I complain about not getting sex... I don't really -want- sex. I haven't for some time.

I just want a muse. Which sadly, does not seem a likely outcome. I've tried writing, but every time I start, I think of how much work I lost, get depressed about it, and stop. Which seems rather pathetic, and is definitely anti-productive... But sadly, unavoidable.

So I've now officially been awake for 24 hours. I have six more hours of work to get through, and I am slowly going crazy..... I even bought a Jolt at lunch, cuz you know, the four RockStar Roasted, the 2 L of coke mixed with a shot of espresso per glass, and the caffeine mint I've had in the last 20 hours aren't -enough- to give me a heart murmur, I just gotta go that extra push.

The only other thing I can think of, really, is that I was at one point intending to go to a halloween party next saturday, this despite plans to level in WoW... Sadly, finances don't jibe right for it, and at the same time, I remembered, I still haven't renewed my healthcard. Which means I can't get into a bar if I got carded at the door. So much for that idea... Was going to go as The Crow too. Not very original for me, but screw you too... LOL

You know though, to jump back a paragraph or so... You know you're tired when -chewing- becomes an effort.... I've also made a discovery... My mental state when over tired (on the third or fourth wind, such as now), is almost identical to my mental state when buzzed/drunk on whiskey.

So yeah... my eyes are blood shot, my pulse is semi - racing, and I have absolutely no energy (no idea how I'm even answering these calls that come through)... And I'm here for far too much longer....

Stay safe all...

Peace out,

The Zodiak.