This isn't going to be a long post, or very detailed. It is simply there because I want to get it off my mind.
What do you do when your reason for being says she doesn't need anything from you, and that she doesn't want you to correct anything you've done wrong?
Not much you can do, except keep your head above water, keep the darkness at bay, and hope for a light at the end of the tunnel (the one that doesn't involve death).
So I'm going to go tread water, and wonder why the hell it is that out of the friends I have, there are none I can confide in because they either have their own issues, or my self-loathing and darkness is too overwhelming... It's bad when I am so negative at times, that no one wants to hear it. Then people wonder why I have a nervous breakdown, or a stroke at 23...
This is a rendition of something I wrote in high school, I can never remember all the inbetween lines, but think it fits my mood tonight.
Blood blood everywhere
steep the flow? I don't care
blood blood everywhere
pooling, dripping 'pon the floor
blood blood everywhere
watch it fall shred and tear
blood blood everywhere
crimson drops I do share
blood blood everywhere
darkest thoughts without a care
blood blood everywhere
caressing rivulet through my hair
blood blood everywhere
let it come, I do dare
blood blood everywhere
will I live, now I fare
blood blood everywhere
released self loathing to the air
blood blood everywhere
parted flesh does now sear
blood blood everywhere
steep the flow? I don't care.
Cheers... If you need me, I'll be treading the waves to keep my head above water.
Chris.
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