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Ok, gotta open with this before I forget.

People say that it is never good to go to bed on a full stomach, that it can cause bizarre dreams. Well, I went to bed without eating a snack last night, and had one of the most bizarre, creepy, dreams that I've had in awhile. Not precisely night terror level, but still pretty intense.

So basic run down of said dream... I was doing some landscaping with my father and some of his old workers (they were all roofers, so not sure why we were tearing up landscape)... Anyways... we were ripping into some wreckage against a hillside, using shovels and pick axes... And I hit a nest of some kind. I flipped an old rotting board and out came... Spiders.

They looked like tarantulas in shape and size... But they were multi colored, gray, red, blue, black... That is to say each spider possessed a different color.

So I nailed the first one, crushed it... barely... Took me two or three tries. Why is it that in dreams my coordination is shot to shit, and I never move fast enough? Anyways... One of them bit me. Or I thought it bit me on the shin, guess it just had potent, lusty sex with my leg, because I remember we turned to run, but one bit another of us, and he died almost instantly... I, on the other hand... Had the joy of having millions of tiny spiders hatching inside me and bursting out of my pores while I still lived.... They then did the little spider web-parachute thing, and went after everyone else.

I wasn't alive for the rest of that particular dream... But still, creepy, right?

Onwards!

So I've cut Kiwi out of my life. Ironic considering how hard I fought to KEEP her in my life, to help her through shit, to keep things together for her with everything robbie put her through. They broke up, and she was broken, shattered, ruined, and the result? Oh, the result was that she jumped on the first cock that offered comfort... I told her my opinions on it, that it was a bad idea.

But what do I know, right? I only warned her about robbie months before he fucked her head up so badly. No one ever listens to me, then they act surprised when I'm right.

Of course, this was not why I cut her out. Anyone that knows me, knows that I get annoyed, even irritated, when my advice is ignored... But I endure it, shrug it off, feign support for the stupid acts you do, and then hand you your subscription of "I told you so." magazine when it ends up exactly where I said it would end.

No, what put me to the limit, where I had had enough... Is that she had given me a WoW account, one where I had leveled up, geared up, and powered up, a rogue. A rogue that I was very proud of and had intention of transferring to play with old friends. While the account was inactive while I waited on a credit card to do the transfer, she sold it for an exorbitant price. $600 for a T9 rogue with a couple shit ass 80s added in.

Principle of the matter. She never asked, never told me. No, I found out when I went into the account to double check the prices of the transfer and race change, to find the account re-activated, and my rogue renamed "iheartnaveah" turned into an orc, and transferred to gurubashi.

Not pleased.

What else... what else....

Oh!

Woke up this morning to an msn message from Maggie, asking if I had deleted her from msn as well. No, no I had not. I did however, remove her from facebook at the same time I removed Kalli/Kiwi from it. Cleared off a few names from it, really. My explanation is simple... She has made intention clear that she has no intention to forgive me for my one shortsighted act, she doesn't love me, she holds contempt for my love for her... She doesn't come on msn anymore (this is the first I've seen her since the 31st of january, except for a 2 minute encounter where she said "my back hurts, brb smoke" on the 7th of february and that was the extent of the conversation), she doesn't call me anymore (something that used to be a nightly thing), and she doesn't come on facebook to chat either.

Why bother?

I love her, of course. That will not change overnight, hell, like with Darcy, that probably won't ever change. But at the same time, why should I punish myself to see her status updates referring to her gaming with other people, and going out with friends, and knowing that through all of it, she has absolutely no regard for me?

What else.... Hm... Oh! Ashley.

Yeah... Uhm... Nothing there. Just a friend. Nothing I'm going to divulge though.

I think that about summarizes anything of importance.

Cheers,

Chris.