Drama

I fucking hate drama. I used to love stress filled situations, thrived in them even. It was a thing that I could dive into head first and savor the chaos and hell that was being let loose all around me.

Now though? I fucking hate drama. I'm too old to be dealing with childish bullshit and concerns, petty complaints and issues, or the political drama of, "he said, she said, and she's avoiding him because, and he's mocking her because and and and..."

And who the FUCK cares?

If you have a problem, if you think there is an issue, deal with it. Up front and center, instead of bitching and moaning to anyone with an ear and dragging more people into something that is, quite simply, none of their business.

Drama doesn't come from "you did this and I didn't like it." it comes from, "HE did this and I didn't like it." when you drag other people into a mess, it becomes drama, a whole pile of shit that ends up stirring crap and stress and a major pain in everyone's ass, because EVENTUALLY someone is going to break, and when that happens, sometimes it's too late to shore up the leaks in the hull.

Where does that come from? It comes from learning a new friend who I have an attraction to, who shares my lifestyle and opinions of the world, it comes from figuring out where the two of us stand, and getting the proper setting between us. It comes from her not stepping up and saying what is on her mind. Which is great, fine for a slave, until she vents to someone else and that someone else comes to me, and I have to confront her (after 48 hours of her avoiding me), all to find out the drama was shit we had pretty much already discussed.

That being said... I fucking hate drama.

On another note, I may need to find a new place to live for a month or so, because Devon fucked up and decided to procrastinate on getting the needed information into the management at the apartment, which in turn left Erika and I fucked in the ass because now we may not get it, and the Superintendent is humming and hawing about an actual solution (which is to say giving us the three bedroom or finding us a two bedroom).

So that has made today rather shitty, I don't want to even be up, but the one thing worthwhile at this moment is chandra, and she's leaving in less than a month. Worse, is that I can't go with her, because of bills, problems, and so on so forth.

I'm keeping my head afloat, and once I move, things will get better, but until I move, things are complex and expensive.

I just need to wrap my head around too many things, it seems. I love the way the past week went, and can't wait for a future that is going to do the exact same thing for me, but at the same time, it's something to adapt to.

All in time, and there is a lot to go over and go through.

Cheers,

Chris.