Sunday, January 22, 2012

Condemnation

So I'm turning 27 in a couple of days.

The arrangements are a couple weeks old, not that it's anything fancy. Myself and a few friends (one car load) going to dinner at the marketplace where it's a cheap and very expansive buffet, and then heading out to the movies to watch the new Underworld movie.

I figured it was simplistic, and easily managed. I wasn't planning a huge party, just dinner with friends and a movie I want to see (and a couple of my friends are eager for as well)...

I knew there'd be a trick shot as Travis has work issues during the week, and I thought he may have to work until 9pm on tuesday. I figured if that was the case, well, there's a 10:30pm showing of the movie too. So he has to miss dinner, can still hit up the movie, right? Well, him having to work in the morning caused that plan to go down the drain. After a 13hr shift, with no chance to sleep in the next day, he's not going to be interested in staying up past midnight for a movie.

Alas, I lose Travis for the celebration. But shit happens... Except... Kait can't go either, not because of work, but because Travis was one of the friends that wanted to see the movie, and he wants to see it with her. So since he wants to see it with her, and she can't see it with me if she's to see it with him. She's cancelled as well.

So from five people going (two of them were the ones originally asked even), has gone down to three. I've extended an invitation to another friend, and may even poke Neal to see if he'd like to go, though I bet dimes to dollars he probably has to work, and his schedule is a hell of a lot less forgiving, since he works late night closing schedule more often than not.

It is just depressing that two friends aren't going to be able to make it, and yeah, I probably (I did) handle it poorly, cuz it hurts that they won't be able to come, and hurts more that one is being denied going because she isn't allowed to see the movie without him. Decisions, choices, and walks of life. In my hurt state I cancelled our plans this afternoon for an Underworld Marathon, which I figured would be a great way for Kait to see the movies for the first time, and for Travis and I to refresh our memories on the movies.. Cuz honestly, they are awesome movies, and I wanted a refresher course on them before I went to see the newest one which takes place after the second one.

Instead I'll be going over to alei's place to watch them, since she hasn't seen them either and she's coming on tuesday as well.

I owe Travis and Kait an apology, and when I am less pissed off at the situation, and a little more level on it and have the chance to calm down, relax, and pull myself out of the depressive slump that it has put me in to have two friends absent for my 27th... Well, I'll give them that apology. Probably tomorrow, maybe wednesday.... It will happen when my mind is more focused and clear and I can offer it with sincerity instead of out of necessity.

There's not a lot more to add to this, this is a vent over recent events, nothing more. I have to get ready and head out, have movies to watch and people to hang out with.

Cheers.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Pet peeves

Ya know... So many things irk me, and it's kind of strange as so little bugs me in life. There are just a few things that I have begun to notice that make me think, "Are you fucking kidding me??"

One of them is something that chandra and I got into an argument over more than once... and that is two women calling each other, "wifey" or "wife" or... what the fuck ever....

Are you legally wed? No... Ok.... How about common law? No? ... Uh.... Are you at the very least in a relationship of any kind?? No...... Just friends.... WHAT THE HELL???

This is one of those things that just doesn't have any place as a common saying, or a common anything... Yet I see it more and more among people. It's something that makes my eye twitch with the redundancy and retardation of the simple implication with the profound meaning that they just simply don't seem to grasp.

Something else that has lately begun to bother me... Is the whole, "women with curves are hotter than skinny chicks" movement. A lot of hot pictures are going up on various sites, facebook, fetlife, twitter, etc etc... These women, are indeed hot, and they do indeed have curves. They weigh in at perhaps 150-170 pounds, maybe a lil more, and they are deliciously proportioned.

I know many women that fall into this category, girls who are not the typical model sized anorexic sluts that parade around in a size 0.

So I do agree, that women with curves are hot. But it has to be women with CURVES... ROUND is not a fucking curve. There comes to a point where you cannot claim to be a woman with curves, where you slide from "curvy" into BBW. This is something that is beginning to bother me as well. No offense to those who are BBW, you are beautiful in your own way, however you are -not- curvy.

So those who are over 250 pounds, and their waistline isn't so much a waist as an additive to their hips and stomach, and their curves amount to a gorgeous rack and... well... a gorgeous rack... You are not curvy, you are not voluptuous, you are rotund. This doesn't mean you aren't cute, or pretty, or beautiful. This merely means that those pictures of highly attractive hourglass figure women that you post like it's a representation of who you are.......... Isn't a fucking representation of you. But you keep working towards that, maybe one day you will be curvy.

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God, that rant has been in me for over two weeks.

That being said, I received a follow up letter from the genetics clinic going over everything we went over while I was there. Their theory isn't so much muscular dystrophy, as it is a brand of muscular dystrophy called myotonic dystrophy, which has more to do with the nerves than the muscles themselves.

The blood is being tested for them to confirm the diagnosis, which should be done, according to the letter I have here, by about mid-february.

In the meantime, I need to get a new phone. My hopes of unlocking my iphone and using it for my new provider have fallen flat as I tried to unlock it myself, and ended up instead updated it and causing it to be unlockable entirely. Talk about a pain in the ass. So now it is sitting as a very expensive iPod with no use other than to be locked out in recovery mode until I can get around to bringing it down to Travis and Kait's place to re-update it sometime.

Not much else to report on. I feel so much more relaxed now that I was able to bitch.

Cheers.